Wednesday, January 6, 2010

A Few Thoughts from Dr. Chris

So I don't do this blog thing so much but I did see some interesting but very emotionally draining patients today so let me give this a go: After my first few patients today, I thought I was just going to have to quit! My first 6 patients took me an hour and 1/2. Mind you between the 3 docs, on average we are seeing 80 patients a piece per day. We tested many people who were HIV positive. *I saw a mother of 4 who had just 3 weeks ago lost her 4 month old son to some unknown illness and now was complaining of vaginal bleeding. She was obviously depressed, to say the least. She needed further testing, which I couldn't provide. I could do nothing medically for this patient, and I'm sure she probably won't be able to afford the testing. * I saw a 23 year old lady who had gone up country for a job, left her 2 year old son with the grandmother. When the mother came back, she found out that her 2 year old son had died from overwhelming sepsis. She was just married and had been trying to conceive again and had been trying for nearly 2 years. She begged me to help her. She wanted a child so desperately. Once again, she needed further testing. I could do nothing. * I saw a single mom with 2 young children with newly diagnosed HIV - just diagnosed today. She has no support. She has no husband. She has no money. When I told her the news, she looked at me as if I had given her a death sentence. And while there are programs available for her to receive treatment, I, personally, could do nothing. * I saw a mother who complained of multiple pelvic symptoms and had a child who had a fairly large lesion on his groin. After further questioning, she admitted that the family was being sexually and physically abused by her husband. I have a dispensary of Tylenol, a few antibiotics, steroid cream and a few other random medications, none of which can treat this. I could do nothing. And these were just within my first...6....patients. I wish I could say the rest of the 70-some patients were not so complicated, but many of them unfortunately had similar stories. I've gone to four years of undergraduate. I've gone to four years of medical school. And now I'm half way through my residency. There's nothing that prepares you for this. While I may say I could do nothing, I did do something. I prayed. I prayed like I've never prayed before. I prayed for a miracle. Miracles. While I don't know if any of these circumstances will change immediately, I do know that God has me here and brought them to me. I pray that even if their situations don't change, and even if I may never see them again, that they will find comfort in Christ alone and that we may experience eternity with Christ together. As you read this blurb in our blog, please pray with me.


Rachel, Andy, Christopher, and Kaela said...

Dear Chris and Sara,
I'm praying much for you right now. I know nothing can prepare you for what you are experiencing right now - Sara, don't feel bad about your first reaction to the slums. You CAN love those people, and you are, just by being there. The fact that you're trying and you went back is loving those people. I know it's heart breaking...just love those you're with each day, and realize you can't "fix" it all, but you can be a light while you're there. I love you and am proud of you and Chris. Hang in there. God will greatly bless you for the love and time you're sacrificing for Him.

Stephanie said...

Love you guys! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA!

MostHolyRev said...

Thinking and praying for you both a lot today. I hope that you have a grand birthday as you enjoy your safari. Your mother is not able to get the internet at your home in Florida. She said to let you know that she cannot write you or read your blog at the present time.
Be safe and we look forward to seeing you when you get back.

MostHolyRev said...

I finally found the Argyle library (which by the way is not on the GPS unit, so I am very proud of myself). I just caught up with your blog and I sit here with tears in my eyes trying to read through it, but my vision is blurred and my heart breaks with you. I have had circumstances in my life that there was nothing that I could do but pray - it is a hopeless feeling, yet, there is more power in prayer than anything that you can DO. I too pray with you that these people whom your life is touching will find their comfort, peace and salvation in Christ. That is my prayer... I love you both and there isn't a moment that I'm not praying and thinking about you... Mom

Mitch said...

Sara and Chris,
WOW. your entry chris just makes me realize how fortunate we are to have healthcare and insurance to cover the testing and care. you guys are making such an impact over there even if at moments it doesn't seem like it. God is definiltey using you.
Hope your birhtday was a blessed one Sara! What a place to spend it!!
Thinking of you guys...

Amy Baron said...

Sara and Chris,

Your words you both are writing are beautiful. Bringing me to tears, but with a smile on my face. I'm so proud of you both, as you are ministering to the people of Kenya. Praying for you daily!
Sara, I hope you had a marvelous birthday. Love you both!


Tim & Susan said...

Sara & Chris,
Thanks for sharing your experiences. We're sure you both are doing a lot of good, and learning a lot at the same time. We are praying for you and hope you stay healthy and hopeful.